today I will
Today I will make a change, or today I will die trying.
“I” being me. Wires and chains hold me back.
I’m not cut out for all of this. And if it’s with me that the issue lay, I will be sure to remove the related factor. Maybe “I” won’t know what happens next, maybe the me I know so well will cease. It’s not fair to say that I’ll die. I’ll still be here, nobody is ever gone at these moments, the thoughts and memories linger. For some, longer than others.
But no, that’s not the issue here. I don’t mean a brain or heart laid still without crimson to power it.
Death of a personality, one’s self. Even for a moment,
Sorry. I’ve got to go for now.